This past year will forever be known as my year of change. As I begin the start of a new school year, I cannot help but to reflect over every event of this past year. If you have read some of my earlier blogs then you know how hard the fall of 2017 was for me, and how essential the year of 2018 has become. The change in me is only by and through Jesus Christ.
I have had snapchat pictures and videos pop up on my year memories over the last couple of weeks, and I just smirk looking at myself and even others in those photos. I had no idea about my upcoming trials and road ahead. I had no idea God was going to rid me of my pride, and transform me into a woman of God in which I am called to be. I had no idea that a relationship would soon end and I would be left heartbroken and confused. But what I also did not know was just how badly I needed Jesus, and how badly I needed him to interfere in that relationship. A year ago I did not know what a healthy godly relationship looked like, even though I sure thought I did. Little did I know, that a year later I would have been in another relationship that would also end. But an end that left me at peace and knowing only good things are to come. And it is okay, because relationships end and that is just a part of life. I am rereading my older blogs and I find a peace about my new season of singleness. I have been in two relationships total, each that have taught me things that will last a lifetime. It is okay to go through a breakup and be heartbroken, and it is also okay to go through one and feel completely at peace with the situation.
Last year, I did not understand what intimacy with God meant. I did not understand why prayer was so important. I honestly just was not a deep thinker last year. I was simple, too simple. I did not spend my time wisely or productively. I never reflected or thought about how I was growing as a follower of Christ (which is essential btw). I did not understand why learning or reading was important or even necessary. I did not understand that I had a naive way of thinking. Of course, I still have a lot of learning and growing to do!
All I can say is, I thank God for this past year of growth and changes. It is evident that God makes ALL things new. I thank God I am not where I was a year ago. I thank Him for today, and what He will continue to do in my life as the years go on. I thank Him for placing people in my life that help me grow and are continuously patient and loving towards me. I thank Him for giving me new wisdom and discernment. I thank Him for being my solid rock and redeemer. I thank him for the hard year of lessons in 2017 and 2018. I thank Him for my past relationships and I thank Him for this new season in my life that is only just beginning.
I know Gods goodness does not change.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.
Proverbs 3:5-6
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